(THIS IS THE FINAL TEXT MESSAGE THAT I SENT TO MY MOTHER BEFORE SHE PASSED. I WANTED TO EXPRESS MY LOVE FOR HER. I ALSO WANTED TO ELIMINATE ANY FEARS SHE HAD OF THE UNKNOWN.)
Mom, I love you so much.
I am so grateful for everything you have done for me, but I am especially grateful for your stepping in and taking care of Rivers when I was unable to even care for myself.
You were a good mom, but an amazing grandmother. You taught me to learn from my mistakes.
Not a single day passes by that something DOES not trigger random memories of my life with you, and you are usually at the center of them. It truly is the little things that matter most in one’s short life.
Like you mixing my cereals together and giving it a silly name. Shaving my legs for the first time at Sewanee College Parents weekend. Every night you ask me, “what made you happy today? And did anything make you sad?
You have been an amazing role model for all of us. I love you even more than I know how to express with words. You have always been the heart of our family. Even now at age 40, I still want you when I’m sick or scared.
Rivers has grown into a lively, well behaved, smart young man- and a big reason for that is you, mom. We all have but one life to live and I think it’s fair to say that you spent yours showering us all with your love.
Now you stand on the precipice, a new and beautiful beginning awaits you. One that is free of pain and suffering. One that is filled with laughter and love, and happiness. Pop and Nana are there.
Don’t be scared mom, he is always with you, and you will always be in our hearts; so in a strange way, you get to live in two places at the same time.
“I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living, my mother you’ll be”.
Always your daughter, Fran