World of Fire

World of Fire

The essence of true beauty
Lingers in all-encompassing rainbows
Of your joy and laughter

You hold my hand and smile
As we ensconce ourselves in our world of fire
Our love is all there is

I touch your face
Your gentleness astounds me
I’m held in the honour of your love

Then overnight, the world turns suor
61 mInutes past the ELeventh Hour
I’M A L 0 N E
Poet: Spike Milligan

SPIRITS LOST

SPIRITS LOST

Dreams fascinate me, always have.  I experience brief spans of time where I actually prefer sleep over my real life. During these brief time spans, my dreams are vividly clear and emotionally charged. Best of all,  I have the ability to actually create and control them… 

Suddenly, in my 30’s, I began what I now refer to as my ‘dream dry-spell’. When finally I dreamt again, the very moment my eyelids would flutter open, it was gone.  This dream and forget pattern continued for quite awhile.  Until last night, as a matter of fact…

I was dead. 

Dead, but not gone.

 I was in spirit form. 

A ghost, if you will. 

Moving about in my spirit form somehow  allowed me to see inside if a person’s heart. I was frightened, because there were more dark and evil hearts around me than good ones. 

  • What frightened me most, was all the evil and hatred I could now clearly see inside of so many hearts belonging to the wandering mall patrons. It felt as if these violent thoughts and desires wanted to leap out and latch onto myself and other good souls, so that like an infection, it could spread.

I spent a long time just floating around. On the mall playground I came upon the spirit of a young child crying. I approached the young spirit and words were spoken. I’m unable to recall exactly what was said between us. What I recall, vividly, is that whatever conversation I had with this young spirit, resulted in  a bright flash of pure, white light, and the young spirit was gone. Crossed over, I hope. I was able to assist 3 more spirits  before I woke, wondering when it would be my turn…. 

ALONE

ALONE

​I am alone, in spite of love,

In spite of all I take and give —

In spite of all your tenderness,

Sometimes I am not glad to live.


I am alone, as though I stood

On the highest peak of the tired gray world,

About me only swirling snow,

Above me, endless space unfurled;


With earth hidden and heaven hidden,

And only my own spirit’s pride

To keep me from the peace of those

Who are not lonely, having died. 

Poet: Sarah Teasdale

I am a SPINSTER.

 It’s time for me to stop lying to myself while living in denial. I am an actual flesh and blood SPINSTER. The only thing im missing is multiple  cats roaming around.  I do, however, have 2 dogs, so that may count.  I never meant for this to happen to me. It wasn’t supposed to happen to me. I always felt so lucky in love, untill 4 years ago, that is.  I was lucky, really lucky. And really unlucky all at the same time. Confused?  Yea, me to. As I said, I never meant for this to happen to me, and by ‘this’, I mean ‘spinsterhood’.

I was 25 years old the first time we laid eyes on each other. My son was 4.  I had been with my boyfriend for 6 years at this point. Things had gone stale between us, to put it mildly. And by stale, I mean that he spent 18 of every 24 hours, playing dumb games on our stupid Xbox. Good thing that at this point in my life I had my posse to keep me company. Lol. I mean, I had 7 best friends, all guys, and they were all over at my house most of the time, so I was able to overlook my Xbox zombie for a time. 

 I was attempting to paint the trim in my kitchen when he first walked into my house and into my life, for the first time. Now, this part is hard for me to put into words without sounding like a total cheese ball, but I swear it really happened this way. As I said, I was painting trim in my kitchen. That’s when he walked in, followed by his girlfriend. It didn’t matter who else was in the room, because when our eyes met, everyone in the room felt our chemistry, our connection. Especially our respective partners. 

Now I’m not going to go into detail right now about the next decade and a half. The reason I told you this much was simply to explain why I had always felt so lucky in love. Basically, even now, as a self proclaimed SPINSTER, I know that I am lucky still. I personally know people my age who have done nothing but dream of finding a love like I have already experienced. Besides, no one ever said that once you find true love it will last untill the day you die. Well, I take that back. The reason that im a SPINSTER is because I gave my heart to the love of my life, and I can’t find any reason to be with anyone else. Why bother? It would be 2nd best, because you do not get better than I have already had it. You just don’t. So now, you may call me Ms. Spinster. My 2 dogs and I will happily live out our remaining days knowing that Inot only found my true love, I was able to experience that love for over a decade. Even now, single and alone, I am proud to be who I am today because of this. 

Queen Feelings

Queen Feelings

Are my feelings true?

 As true

 as they get.

Go through anything for you, tears, blood and sweat.

You’ve got me on a cloud right now, hope I don’t descend.

Got my emotions tired, want to be much more than friends.

Bringing aspects to your life that you had never seen,

My heart, a desolate desert, turned into a budding, flowering green.


I don’t care if I’m the King, so long as you are my reigning Queen.

You turned my life if nightmares, into a living dream.

Take your time, think it over, 

 don’t answer right away;

Just realize Queen, you are the Ray of sunlight in my day

Positive Affirmations

Positive Affirmations

A Positive affirmation is a statement, goal, or decision that you acknowledge in a positive way. This is done in an effort to maintain the balance of your intentions. 



Affirmations are simply “guides” that provide you with a clear picture of your goal, wish, or thought. Using affirmations, you are given the opportunity to have a fresh idea. New ideas and mental images are produced by your mind, and you simply affirm (state) them in a positive way.

Affirmations are also the mental guides or blueprints needed to further develop your future plans and the necessary actions required to succeed. Just remember to decide, envision, and affirm the things you want in a positive way. It’s also imporrant to remain optimistic while affirming your goals and desires you want to achieve.

Using positive affirmations daily will give you the ability to draw out the true power and strength within you,

Remember; you need to clear your mind. Clear from your conscious and unconscious mind all the unwanted negative thoughts, pictures, and emotions.  This will allow your affirmations and decisions to be made without hesitation.

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Simply put, affirmations are right decisions in which you  acknowledge in order to maintain the balance of your intentions.  Use them as “guides” to provide you with a clear picture which will allow you direct insight into your own thoughts, or to clarify what other individuals have said to you. A fresh perspective and mental images are produced by your mind.

 Remember to decide well and affirm only  the things you want to do in a positive way. Be optimistic when stating what you desire to achieve. There is no limit to what you are capable of. 

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DISTORTION

DISTORTION


Periods of long distortion,

when I see things through the eyes of you. 

This view, 

What will tomorrow bring?

Distortion.

Around the corner my head hurts.

Those eyes, that memory, this road before I’ve traveled.  

But which way did I go?

Just over that hill, be still. 

Bad memory, waking up in dreams.

I want to see what is next…

Into the eyes of you, this view.

What happens after now?

Forever stop infinity to cease endless,

Distorted,

And just out of bounds,

The time to wake up is now.

10 Things I Hate About You…

10 Things I Hate About You…

1.) Because you heard rubbing against an Asian is good luck?

2.)You pop your gum constantly… for hours on end. It causes me to want to climb a wall OR to go over and hit you on the back causing you to spit the gum on the floor. I would then jump up and down on that gum with petulant glee screaming “you done popping yet? ARE YOU???”

3,) I hate how you discover a new movement each week. One day you are walking around in a whale outfit and the next you are laying down in front of my SUV while I am trying to drive away saying “I am murdering the ozone.” I can’t keep up with you!

5,) I hate how you always keep count of how many drinks I have.  I am keeping perfect count.. I put the tops in my pocket. Let’s see I have five… ten… more than a few here apparently…

6.) I hate how you suck the fun out of things. You don’t even need to wave a wand you seem to just absorb the fun in the room. I bet if you bumped into a clown you would kill him by contact.

7.) I hate that you are from a different country and think that you know how “America is” because you have visited here once. I have lived here for 30 years and I still don’t understand this batshit country.

8.) I hate that you have a sign that says “Pro-Choice, Abortion Rights” in one hand and in the other you have “Save the Dolphins.” Fuck the dolphins.

9.) I hate people telling me not to say the word “hate.” I love saying hate because everything else is not worth mentioning.

10.) I hate your perfect sentence because I didn’t write it.

11.) I hate people that are famous for being famous. Naming no names here, but it makes me jealous as hell.

-OM

DISTANCE & A MAN’S HEART~ from a woman’s perspective…

DISTANCE & A MAN’S HEART~ from a woman’s perspective…

All I can say is that distance makes my heart grow fonder.

Not your typical romantic novel, but it’s in the same  genre.

Just the smell of you, can stimulate my Heart.  

Just the thought of  you, inspires My every thought.

You  Somehow turned me into a respectable man, all of my demons disappeared, like the beer in my can.

Love means nothing, unless its shown through  actions. Otherwise, its just a word, that can drive men to distraction.

What you give me is much more than satisfaction, it can  only can be described as pure  sexual attraction.

The most slamming girl can not compete with you, nothing fazes me except other means eyes on you. 

Then…

My knee’s start to quiver, and I begin to shake, the emotions running through me feel close to hate.

JEALOUS.

Hell yes I would take that cats last breath, if he even partially begins to stare at Your breasts.

I trust you with all of my heart, so please baby girl, don’t tear my trust apart.

I was not living before, yet now that I’ve met you, my cluttered life, no longer feels askew. 

A new beginning, a fresh start, and its all because I gave you my 💙. 

I 💙 my liFe.

Get Busy Living…

Get Busy Living…

The time is NOW!! You know, carpe diem. YOLO. You know all the “life is short” mottos. To be honest, they’re cheesy.They are cheesy because they are true.

The time is now my friend, to use your days wisely, of whatever season you are in. Specifically speaking, if you’re in a very quiet and slow season take advantage of that time and use it!

Travel, see the world, do something you wouldn’t normally do. Netflix and chill can happen anytime; seeing the world is not always available.

The time is now to stop vicariously living through others blogs, Instagram stories or Snapchats but to buy that plane ticket and adventure. Instead of wishing to be at that place, MAKE. IT HAPPEN. You’re young once, you only have so many quiet seasons in your life, so why waste it with doing what you usually would be doing when you’re busy?

Bars are so last week.

The time is now my friend to get out of the safe zone and do something that scares you. Do something that makes you feel alive and not trapped in that every day routine. You will never regret travelling.

The time is now to explore, my friend. Explore a bit on your own; learn how to survive by yourself. Learn how to step away from technology and take advantage of this beautiful world we live in by looking up and not down on that stupid piece of technology that corrupts our daily lives. No more Pinterest, no more Google, no more wishing. If you want it bad enough, it can happen! You’re young and possibly single, and if you’re single ENJOY THAT FREEDOM OF OPPOURTUNITY. Stop wishing for a relationship, stop wishing for marriage, and asking all the “what if’s.”

Live in the present. Seize the freaking day because THE TIME IS NOW!

Ready, set, LIVE!!!