Never Grow Up

This is  from the perspective of an 11 year old boy.

My mom has taken a temporary vacation to never-never land. Again. She must have been side tracked while caring for all the lost boys, because to me, it feels as if she rarely returns.  When she does visit me, she seems to have morphed herself into Peter Pan  She  never seemed to grow up.

 She’d sneak through my window late at night, linger just long enough to make me believe in fairy tales and happy dreams, then she’d fly away again. When her heart felt lonely or bored, she would return to me.  I’ll never know why she would vanish, nor do I really care, I only needed to know that she would return. The worst thing about being abandoned by a parent is this: you still love them even when they don’t deserve it.

At night, I’d sit on my window-sill looking for the second star to the right, all the while wondering if she was looking too. I was almost a teen when she went away, so doing things such as wishing on pennies made me feel so childish. I wished anyway. I think every person has a small section of their heart designated to their inner child. That way, when something from your innocence as big as your mother suddenly leaving, your inner child awakens and begins to cry.

Unfortunately, in my case, it was a long time before she came back to soothe me, but she did come back.

I had become so obsessed with waiting for her that eventually the ticking of clocks became as painful as crocodile teeth in my skin.

That’s why I never frowned upon hook; it isn’t until you experience pain that you start to realize sometimes the bad guy makes more sense.

 And even after five years I still feel like Wendy, waiting in my bed every night for one last kiss. Reciting how much I believe in fairies and hoping that one day I’ll be able to fly off into the night, to feel my mothers love again.

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If someone were to ask, ‘”what is your greatest strength?” How would you reply?  John F. Kennedy, said “My curiosity.”  Now, that’s an answer most wouldn’t expect.  Then there’s Albert Einstein, who claimed, “I have no special talent, I am only passionately curious.”

Eleanor Roosevelt replied,  “I think, at a child’s birth, if a mother could ask a fairy godmother to endow him/her with the most useful gift, that gift would be curiosity.” 
What’s so great about curiosity? Actually, it’s one of the few traits that we, as humans, share with the entire animal kingdom.  It’s that primal, necessary urge to find out everything we can about our environment and oursurroundings.

 It was curiosity that compelled Christopher Columbus to sail the oceans blue. Curiosity guided the first settlers to seek out their food sources and shelter. Just as curiosity remains our guide, today. 
To put it simply, curiosity is the catalyst of survival for all creatures, great and small.  But for humans, it’s so much more.  

Curiosity remains our main reason and our  guide when exploring new ways of doing things.  Its curiosity that has led us to find the solutions to a myriad of problems. It also allows us to investigate many new possibilities.  Its curiosity that keeps our child-like sense of  wonder alive, in all of us.  

When your curiosity is keen, you can grow, and expand your mind and life, to fulfill even your wildest dreams.   

This is a fun trick to try, to demonstrate what I mean.

The next time you face a problem or a challenge, start your thought process with the words “What if… .”  Then close your eyes and allow yourself to imagine and visualize the most absurd, ridiculous, unlikely, “way out” solutions you can.  This m+ethod helps me to think outsi

e of the6 rsll l’proverbial’ box. You just might surprise yourself by what you  come up with!

Now, to add a few more words to your ‘curiosity arsenal’, here’s a poetic reminder from Rudyard Kipling:   

“I had six honest serving men.  
They taught me all I knew.  I call them Why and When and Where  And How and What and Who.”

Oh! And don’t worry that “curiosity killed the cat.”  Remember the rest of that proverb?- “but satisfaction brought him back”
Stay curious!

World of Fire

The essence of true beauty
Lingers in all-encompassing rainbows
Of your joy and laughter

You hold my hand and smile
As we ensconce ourselves in our world of fire
Our love is all there is

I touch your face
Your gentleness astounds me
I’m held in the honour of your love

Then overnight, the world turned sour
61 minutes past the Eleventh Hour
I’M A L 0 N E…


Dreams fascinate me, always have.  I experience brief spans of time where I actually prefer sleep over my real life. During these brief time spans, my dreams are vividly clear and emotionally charged. Best of all,  I have the ability to actually create and control them… 

Suddenly, in my 30’s, I began what I now refer to as my ‘dream dry-spell’. When finally I dreamt again, the very moment my eyelids would flutter open, it was gone.  This dream and forget pattern continued for quite awhile.  Until last night, as a matter of fact…

I was dead. 

Dead, but not gone.

 I was in spirit form. 

A ghost, if you will. 

Moving about in my spirit form somehow  allowed me to see inside if a person’s heart. I was frightened, because there were more dark and evil hearts around me than good ones. 

  • What frightened me most, was all the evil and hatred I could now clearly see inside of so many hearts belonging to the wandering mall patrons. It felt as if these violent thoughts and desires wanted to leap out and latch onto myself and other good souls, so that like an infection, it could spread.

I spent a long time just floating around. On the mall playground I came upon the spirit of a young child crying. I approached the young spirit and words were spoken. I’m unable to recall exactly what was said between us. What I recall, vividly, is that whatever conversation I had with this young spirit, resulted in  a bright flash of pure, white light, and the young spirit was gone. Crossed over, I hope. I was able to assist 3 more spirits  before I woke, wondering when it would be my turn…. 


​I am alone, in spite of love,

In spite of all I take and give —

In spite of all your tenderness,

Sometimes I am not glad to live.

I am alone, as though I stood

On the highest peak of the tired gray world,

About me only swirling snow,

Above me, endless space unfurled;

With earth hidden and heaven hidden,

And only my own spirit’s pride

To keep me from the peace of those

Who are not lonely, having died. 

Poet: Sarah Teasdale


 It’s time for me to stop lying to myself while living in denial. I am an actual flesh and blood SPINSTER. The only thing im missing is multiple  cats roaming around.  I do, however, have 2 dogs, so that may count.  I never meant for this to happen to me. It wasn’t supposed to happen to me. I always felt so lucky in love, untill 4 years ago, that is.  I was lucky, really lucky. And really unlucky all at the same time. Confused?  Yea, me to. As I said, I never meant for this to happen to me, and by ‘this’, I mean ‘spinsterhood’.

I was 25 years old the first time we laid eyes on each other. My son was 4.  I had been with my boyfriend for 6 years at this point. Things had gone stale between us, to put it mildly. And by stale, I mean that he spent 18 of every 24 hours, playing dumb games on our stupid Xbox. Good thing that at this point in my life I had my posse to keep me company. Lol. I mean, I had 7 best friends, all guys, and they were all over at my house most of the time, so I was able to overlook my Xbox zombie for a time. 

 I was attempting to paint the trim in my kitchen when he first walked into my house and into my life, for the first time. Now, this part is hard for me to put into words without sounding like a total cheese ball, but I swear it really happened this way. As I said, I was painting trim in my kitchen. That’s when he walked in, followed by his girlfriend. It didn’t matter who else was in the room, because when our eyes met, everyone in the room felt our chemistry, our connection. Especially our respective partners. 

Now I’m not going to go into detail right now about the next decade and a half. The reason I told you this much was simply to explain why I had always felt so lucky in love. Basically, even now, as a self proclaimed SPINSTER, I know that I am lucky still. I personally know people my age who have done nothing but dream of finding a love like I have already experienced. Besides, no one ever said that once you find true love it will last untill the day you die. Well, I take that back. The reason that im a SPINSTER is because I gave my heart to the love of my life, and I can’t find any reason to be with anyone else. Why bother? It would be 2nd best, because you do not get better than I have already had it. You just don’t. So now, you may call me Ms. Spinster. My 2 dogs and I will happily live out our remaining days knowing that Inot only found my true love, I was able to experience that love for over a decade. Even now, single and alone, I am proud to be who I am today because of this. 

Your Astrology Sign- & the SHIT People Say Behind You Back


(March 21st to April 19th)
You can have a bit of a temper. People make secret bets on when your next explosion of anger is going to be.


(April 20th to May 21st)
You show off with money and it makes everyone feel uncomfortable. It’s cool that you offer to pay for drinks, but not when you follow it up with, “I can absolutely afford it, don’t worry!”


(May 22nd to June 21st)
People toss the word ‘psycho’ around in group texts fairly frequently. On one hand, your friends love you. But on the other, you can act sort of psycho…


(June 22nd to July 22nd)
You drunk cry at EVERYTHING. It’s endearing the first few times. But now people are a bit like, “Dude, get yourself together.”


(July 23rd to August 22nd)
People get annoyed at how self-absorbed you can be. You’re definitely tons of fun to be around, but you never let anyone else talk. It’s always you, you, you. Even when someone else tries to talk about something, you find a way to insert yourself into it.


(August 23rd to September 22nd)
You’re so serious/judgmental about everything. Sometimes your friends don’t even want to invite you to things because you’re such a downer.


(September 23rd to October 22nd)
You’re SUCH a Mom/Dad. That’s not necessarily a bad thing. You’re responsible and fair, both good traits to have. But yeah, you tend to act like an old person.


(October 23rd to November 22nd)
Sometimes your ‘jokes’ aren’t actually funny and they’re just painful. Your sarcasm borders on being cruel.


(November 23rd to December 21st)
You have such a fun, flirty energy but sometimes it feels like you focus on romance and/or sex more than your friends. People end up feeling neglected and bitter.


(December 22nd to January 20th)
No one talks behind your back because they probably forgot you even existed.


(January 21st to February 18th)
You’re bad at picking up on social clues. Like, reaaaaally bad. People joke about how awkward you always are.


(February 19th to March 20th)

People make fun of your poetry. Enough with the metaphors about fire! You are so cheesy, you’re like a damn slice of pizza. 

Queen Feelings

Are my feelings true?

 As true as they get.


Go through anything for you, tears, blood and sweat.

You’ve got me on a cloud right now, hope I don’t descend.

Got my emotions tired, want to be much more than friends.

Bringing aspects to your life that you had never seen,


My heart, a desolate desert, turned into a budding, flowering green.


I don’t care if I’m the King, so long as you are my reigning Queen.


You turned my life if nightmares, into a living dream.


Take your time, think it over,


don’t answer right away;


Just realize dear Queen,


you are the Ray of sunlight in my day




Positive Affirmations

A Positive affirmation is a statement, goal, or decision that you acknowledge in a positive way. This is done in an effort to maintain the balance of your intentions. 

Affirmations are simply “guides” that provide you with a clear picture of your goal, wish, or thought. Using affirmations, you are given the opportunity to have a fresh idea. New ideas and mental images are produced by your mind, and you simply affirm (state) them in a positive way.

Affirmations are also the mental guides or blueprints needed to further develop your future plans and the necessary actions required to succeed. Just remember to decide, envision, and affirm the things you want in a positive way. It’s also imporrant to remain optimistic while affirming your goals and desires you want to achieve.

Using positive affirmations daily will give you the ability to draw out the true power and strength within you,

Remember; you need to clear your mind. Clear from your conscious and unconscious mind all the unwanted negative thoughts, pictures, and emotions.  This will allow your affirmations and decisions to be made without hesitation.


Simply put, affirmations are right decisions in which you  acknowledge in order to maintain the balance of your intentions.  Use them as “guides” to provide you with a clear picture which will allow you direct insight into your own thoughts, or to clarify what other individuals have said to you. A fresh perspective and mental images are produced by your mind.

 Remember to decide well and affirm only  the things you want to do in a positive way. Be optimistic when stating what you desire to achieve. There is no limit to what you are capable of. 


13 Useful, Everyday Life Hacks

#1 Life Hack:

Are you desperate for money?                               NASA will pay $15,000 to anyone willing to sit in their bed for 87 days. This is an experiment to research the effect’s of zero gravity on the human body.
#2 Life Hack: 

You are 50% more likely to remember something if you speak it out loud instead of simply reading it over and over.

#3 Life Hack: 

Buying a gym membership? Most times, your health insurance company will completely reimburse the cost for you.

#4 Life Hack:  

Buying a car? Buy it at the end of the month. Salespeople have quotas to meet each month and will be more likely to cut you a deal.

#5 Life Hack: 

To clean a microwave: Put a bowl of water inside and microwave for 3 minutes. The steam will moisten everything up making cleaning simple!

#6 Life Hack:

 Put your wet sponge in the microwave for 2 minutes to kill 99% of the bacteria.

#7 Life Hack: 

If you put your fingers in ice water immediately after painting your nails the paint will dry instantly.

#8 Life Hack: 

Put a sticker with a fake PIN number on your debit card. If you lose it and someone tries to use it 3+ times, the machine will eat the card.

#9 Life Hack: 

Go to and enter in an Artists name and YouTube will auto arrange a playlist based on uploads of that artist.

#10 Life Hack:

To convert Celsius to Fahrenheit, double the Celsius number and add 28..
#11 Life Hack:

 Spiders hate peppermint oil. Put some in a squirt bottle with water, spray your garage and all door frames, then watch the spiders run!

#12 Life Hack:

Adding vodka to your shampoo can strengthen your hair, prevent dry scalp, and stop dandruff.

#13 Life Hack:

With the promo code “9ANY” you can get any pizza you want at Pizza Hut for $9. 


Periods of long distortion,

when I see things through the eyes of you.

This view,

What will tomorrow bring?


Around the corner, my head hurts.

Those eyes, that memory, this road before I’ve traveled.

But which way did I go?

Just over that hill, be still.

Bad memory, waking up in dreams.

I want to see what is next…

Into the eyes of you, this view.

What happens after now?

Forever stop infinity to cease endlessly,


And just out of bounds,

The time to wake up is now.

10 Things I Hate About You…

1.) Because you heard rubbing against an Asian is good luck?

2.)You pop your gum constantly… for hours on end. It causes me to want to climb a wall OR to go over and hit you on the back causing you to spit the gum on the floor. I would then jump up and down on that gum with petulant glee screaming “you done popping yet? ARE YOU???”

3,) I hate how you discover a new movement each week. One day you are walking around in a whale outfit and the next you are laying down in front of my SUV while I am trying to drive away saying “I am murdering the ozone.” I can’t keep up with you!

5,) I hate how you always keep count of how many drinks I have.  I am keeping perfect count.. I put the tops in my pocket. Let’s see I have five… ten… more than a few here apparently…

6.) I hate how you suck the fun out of things. You don’t even need to wave a wand you seem to just absorb the fun in the room. I bet if you bumped into a clown you would kill him by contact.

7.) I hate that you are from a different country and think that you know how “America is” because you have visited here once. I have lived here for 30 years and I still don’t understand this batshit country.

8.) I hate that you have a sign that says “Pro-Choice, Abortion Rights” in one hand and in the other you have “Save the Dolphins.” Fuck the dolphins.

9.) I hate people telling me not to say the word “hate.” I love saying hate because everything else is not worth mentioning.

10.) I hate your perfect sentence because I didn’t write it.

11.) I hate people that are famous for being famous. Naming no names here, but it makes me jealous as hell.