A frozen wind bites into my mortal flesh.
My mind is an utter void at this point.
Vacant of thought and emotion~ save one—
There! Down the path, another figure, a life!
I recognize this person, he has returned!
No! This cannot be. He is only a fond memory.
My life has no room for him. I have lost him.
I turn to walk away, but i am halted by;
rough hands, greeted by moist lips, captured
by green eyes, and led back to our home~
Posted by Fran Stone using “WordPress” for Android.
Everyone makes mistakes.” I swear on all I have that I have heard this statement, literally, thousands of times. Unfortunately for me, this seemingly forgiving statement was only said to me throughout my, shall we say, ‘younger years.’ During my late 20’s, I clearly remember going through an embarrassingly long period of denial about the seriously messed up state I found my life in.
Even now, as I am writing this, I find my self snorting in derision. My very unladylike snort is due to the fact that, even now, that ‘messed up’ time in my 20’s? Well, that was a freaking walk in the park on a warm spring day, compared to my present circumstances, which I am, from here on out, going to refer to as ‘the fallout’.
Now, let me clarify something. Anytime I say anything on the messed up state my life is currently in, I am not referring to my present living circumstances. I have actually been ‘living’ in a very nice, extended stay hotel however, before the ‘fallout’, i owned my very own, amazing home. Which I resided in with the only real true love of my life my amazing son, also living there was my then boyfriend of 6 years LJ, 2 dogs, 13 cats, 2 chickens (Bessie & Millie), 5 fish tanks, and for a very short time: 2 ducks. But I’m rambling. My point is, ‘the fallout’ is referring to the many friends, job, family, etc. that, due to MY bad choices, decisions, and behaviors I lost. The changes that I am in the process of making, i hope, will help me get back on the road that one day will lead me back to what really matters…so stay tuned readers…